Heaven

I think I have found a way to send this journal out into the world by posting to a forum. Usually it won’t send anything, but this one type of site seems to work somehow.
I don’t know if this message will get out. I don’t know if I can or should hold on, or what I’ll do. I just know I have to try. To plead with whoever finds this, to put all of this to an end. Find us. Find out what these people are planning to do and stop it. Expose their plans to the world. Please help. I fear for us all.

I have been torn emotionally about my growing child. I have always wanted children, but have not found the right person, the right moment. Now I am pregnant, and I cannot stand the thought of having this man’s baby. If his selfish traits really are genetic, I feel that I have a responsibility to end this life growing inside me. It disgusts me to think of having a baby for this monster. The possibility of giving birth to another person who will go on to abuse humanity, turns my stomach.

“I don’t know what to say.” I truly did not. I was in shock. I did not want to believe him, but I also knew that what he said, was true. From what I know about global events, everything is changing just as he had said. The horror was understanding that they intended to kill off most of humanity.
“Isn’t there another way?”, I asked.
“Consumers don’t have the mental capacity to make the decisions necessary to reduce the human population, and heal the planet. If they did, they would have done so. Consumers cannot take care of themselves without our intervention.”

“Are you going to sterilize them too?”
“No, no. For the foreseeable future, we need a breeding population of humans. Like I said, the current overpopulation has little to do with too many children being born. Depopulation won’t be random. It is not the impoverished people living in the forests of Africa, that are the problem in regards to overpopulation. We have no interest in the indigenous tribal peoples of the world. They do not impact the environment. They concern us no more than monkeys.”

The different people on this island, represent the different camps within the realm of wealthy ideologies. There are globalists and nationalists. They debate and argue their various takes on the social order. However, they are all one, when it comes down to their place in the world. Regardless of there are different ideas about how things should be done, their actions all benefit each other.

After sex and revealing his plan, I was exhausted. I fell asleep. I had nightmares of people being hunted by robots. After I woke up, I did not know what to say. I did not want to interact with him anymore.
He wants me to be happy. Like I should be fulfilled with everything I have here. “You should feel lucky to be here.”, he often says, when I express concern or frustration.
“Happiness relies on a sense of self determination.”, a from a sociology textbook

“By 2000, we finalized a new plan. The population would be reduced by 6-7 billion people in a relatively short amount of time. To do this, We had to stage many events and processes to make the reduction palatable to the public as well as distract from our desired goals.

“So what’s the plan to reduce the population?”, I finally asked, reluctantly. I was doing everything I could to keep my emotions under control.

“Did you decide what actions to take?”, I asked.
“We did, later on. It took some time. Experiments were made and tested. More studies were commissioned. Reducing the population by billions of people is no simple task. Out of the solutions which we discussed, most of them could not be carried out effectively.”
“Like what?”, I asked.