I did everything he asked. It was easy, since I have been confined to his room. After my actions, I did not have to interact with other guests or see their faces. The room had always been a sort of refuge away from the abuse of the other guests. I feel comfortable here.
During this phase in our relationship, we became much closer. He was tender in ways I had not seen before. He became more open about what was going on here. I left me alone in them mornings and many afternoons. I took time to organize my notes in my head. Anytime I have a chance, I make corrections, and add things that seem more relevant now.
My child grows inside me, and I grow with it. As a result, my feelings become less stable. They are changed in ways that are hard to describe. I have grown a strange sort of determination I had not really felt before. Some decisions become easier, more certain. Some things I used to care about seem unimportant now.
We continued our little talks about the state of the world. There were some questions I have to work my way around to. I don’t want to seem like I am pushing or focused on specific answers.
One night we ended up talking about capitalism again. He had mentioned how perfect it is. So I asked him, “If capitalism is so perfect, how does become sustainable?”
“Oh, it will never be sustainable”, he replied. “Capitalism is just a game we created to better manage the slave population. We don’t need it. It has been useful because it allows for people like us to rise to the top, and keeps everyone else in their place. It will soon be obsolete. Every game must have an end, where the winners are rewarded. Capitalism was never designed to last forever. It’s need for continued growth makes that impossible. We have always known that. We have used it to our advantage. Soon it will be over. We have entered the final phase.”
He did not want to talk about the final phase.
“What about money? Isn’t it necessary for a functioning society?”, I asked.
“We do not need money. No one really does. Humans could have accomplished everything in the last five hundred years without money. Money is very useful. We invented money, because it keeps people complacent. Money translates into power. It is a way to control large uncoordinated groups of people, so that they become more dependent, and do not revolt. t creates an incentive structure, which always favors self interested people. It helps in our agenda. However, In the long run, it is not necessary. Money is not going away, but if it did, we will manage with other means of control.”
“Your people are will always be slaves. Money gives people the the illusion of freedom. People would still do things without money, of course, but it would be more difficult to guide them into what we want done. Human creativity and production, are not actually driven by money. It helps if people believe it does. However, It only alters how things are produced. It shapes how people interact with each other. Money always favors centralization and self interest. Money is a means of control. A way to shift blame away from owners and managers. ”
“Look at it this way, if we produce less food, people get angry at us for food shortages. If the price of food goes up to the point where people can’t afford it, they blame themselves for not working hard enough, or they blame each other. Worst case, they blame some part of the food distribution system, or market forces which they cannot control. They do not blame the those of us who are reducing food supplies.”
“We control the market. We control the prices for things, so we determine who gets to eat. The effect is the same as direct control, only the blame is shifted. We can force people to move from their homes, by raising housing prices. We can shorten their lives by raising health care costs. The whole game is designed to shift blame back onto the consumer."

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