It seemed like I was in there for hours. I did not know what was going on outside. I thought maybe they had forgotten about me. I did not dare leave. I wanted to, I tried to, but I could not bring myself to open the door.
I did not know if Steve survived or if they could repair the damage I did. I know that severe accidents here don’t seem to kill them. Jonathan got torn up in a horrible boating accident, but a few months later he was drinking by the pool like nothing had happened.
I worried about the horrible things Steve would do to me if he survived. I doubted anyone would defend me from him. Certainly not now, I had attacked one of them. An animal that attacks a human must be put down.
They led us to believe it was more difficult, if not impossible, to kill them. Many believed it, but these people say anything to manipulate us and get their way. They craft reality to enslave people. They cannot possibly survive all accidents. If someone loses enough blood, they die. I do not think their rejuvenation treatment alone, can bring someone back from the dead.
For a moment, I was sure I was going to see Steve suddenly at the door. I heard the door open and I turned around expecting to see Steve bleeding and furious, but it was my lover. Standing in the doorway, with an almost smile, a sympathetic smile, he motioned for me to come with him. It was the most warming almost smile I had ever seen on him. I thought there was a possibility that he was going to be the one to kill me, but the smile said no. He seemed amused. I felt like a child that did wrong but knew that I would avoid punishment today, and I might get ice cream.
In a very compassionate, caring sort of way, he said, “Don’t worry.” I know he cares more than he should. He took me back to his room. We sat there, quiet. I still didn't know what happened, but I felt calm. He made some drinks.
Later I found out, that due to my pregnancy, they were going to be lenient on me, for now. I would be confined to his room for the duration of the pregnancy, now instead of later, when the baby started showing.
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