Part of me wants to shut down, and dismiss everything he tells me as something I cannot do anything about. Focus on my survival. Just worry about simpler things. Ignore it, deny it, anything that would make it easier, than reconstructing everything that I know.
Other times, I cannot believe that I have been so complacent. I don't know what else to do. These people are monsters. If anything of what he has said is true, their families have been manipulating large populations of people for thousands of years.
I cannot believe I was starting to feel comfortable here. It is said that humans can get used to anything. Still, I am amazed at myself for how I have felt, at times, that I could fit into this life. It is hard to admit to myself now, but there are times that I am having fun. I know I could enjoy my life here, if I let go of the context. I cannot. It keeps coming back. I feel out of place. As far as I can tell, the others seem to enjoy their slavery. However, they could be faking it, just like I do. I wonder how many other women have been told, what he has been telling me. I feel so alone. I don't have anyone to talk to besides him, and I can only agree with him in our conversations.
I hate these rich parasites. I cannot believe I participated in building and maintaining their power before I came here. It disgusts me that I worked for corporations. I was a consumer.
Here are some other random things he has told me in our conversations:
Sales taxes are a way to tie the health of a city or state to the health of the economy. Cities and states become dependent on sales to get their funding. In this way, the state will always put business interests over human interests. Businesses, will also lobby against any city or state level spending increases, because it would mean raising sale taxes. In the same way property taxes made cities dependent on businesses and property development, sales taxes create a dependency on the market for regional services.
“It is the natural order of life to dominate or be dominated.”, He said this a few times. Or, "The strong will always rule the weak." He loves little sayings that justify his power over us.
Once he said, "Abortion needs to be illegal, because studies show, that babies from narcissistic fathers are aborted more often than altruistic ones."